Sunday, May 18, 2008

lonely lonely birthday

My birthday is coming soon but i just don feel any happy or exciting feeling... maybe i have

been study in melbourne for 3 years and the past 3 years birthday i also celebrate there...

Actually each year i will celebrate my birthday in melburne..the reason i do so maybe i just don

wanna be lonely and i really scare of any surprice...not that i don want surprice just that i really

scare no one remember my birthday... since i worry of friends forgot of my birthday so i decide

to celebrate my birthday each year and ask friends come along..

This year, i didn organise any party for myself or anything...maybe i just don know who to tell

and who will be free to come for my birthday.. i really don feel like telling anyone my birthday is

coming soon but i just really scare no one will remember it...

Maybe most of my friends will say my bf will celebrate for me..and yes i know my bf do and

really care of my birthday. But i guess i am a bit too greedy i want my friend, family and bf care

of it..haha

I guess i really too scare of lonely and really need lots of friends to pamper me...haha maybe i

am just like a baby need friends and everyone surrounding me to pamper me... i know this is not

possible and sometimes i just too protective too..sometimes when someone really care of me i

will just too scare and worry... i will rather run away from that person...i also don know why...

Anyway... i will wish myself happy birthday... hope that i will have a happy birthday and

memorable night..

back from redang

Went to Redang with Yee Seng last few days for a vocation.. i really the scence there and the

sea just clear like a pure water... i rally like the feeling sitting beside the beach and let the water

come to me...hehe i will post those photo on my next post cause i just came back not even a day

and i need some times to clear my stuff and my photo as well...

Thursday, May 01, 2008

new start

haha...

i have been stop writing blog for about a year.. the reason i stop maybe just because i am too lazy and i just cannot findany one who really reply my blog all the time..

but never mind... from today onward i will force myself to write something in my blog cause each time i log in to my own blog just feel very empty and useless...hehe so i gotta make my own blog be as beautiful and as more friends as yenny and others now..I guess all my jie mui wil support me right..haha

Iwill try to blog out whatever i think it is nice and memorable for me.. for example food and if there is any travel trip i went..muahaha.. ohhh... ya i plan to go Pulau Redang this year...hopefully it will be a beautiful and relax trip.. i really need sometimes for relax..hehe