Sunday, July 08, 2007

what i really want...

After i have been study in Uni for so long...i really don believe that this is my final semester and i am succesfully graduate..
but but but...why am i not happy or excited... i know i should feel happy or etc but i just don feel anything..the first thing come to my mind is luckily i pass everything...but not like YEE PEE i AM GRADUATED...i don even have the feeling like i am graduated... Maybe i am too old or i really forgot how to be happy...
on the other hand, maybe i start to realise i got no more target in my mind... i always tell myself that i must graduated as soon as possible... and now i am graduated i only feel nothing...the only thing i know is i will gotta start study for my CPA and others...but do i really love this kind of life?? I don know... I am just too aimless...
Maybe i should say i am those ppl don know how to make decision by myself... All the friend who really know me well... will know this is my main problem. I don know what i really want and i will just follow what others want... I always tell myself i have to learn to make decision by myself but when come to reality...everything seem to be so hard... my best friends always scold me that why i never tell them what i really want and just follow what they want...but sometimes the problem is i don even know what i want...
Anyway since i am graguated i must learn to be more tough and speak out what i really want...i gotta learn to make decision..

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I felt tat u dun haf 2 be excited whn u grad cause every ending is a new beginning. Ur "real" life starts now so b prepared 2 face ur "real" challenges ahead.

Bout making decisions, i think following others is quite a good decision u had made. Since i find tat ur aim is to b 2gether wt ur frens n not alone.